Before I start on the whole Mother's Day post I have floating around in my head, I first need to offer a sincere apology. It has been more than two months since my last post...not that I haven't had a lot to say, I just don't seem to be able to focus on any one thing, and sitting long enough to write an entire blog post appears to be out of the realm of possibility. But I am committed to this post tonight. I have tied myself to the chair and will not leave until this post is, well, posted!
A quick update on life in general...yesterday is one year since I started radiation. I feel better now than I have in a year. Not as good as I did the year before that, but I am trying to learn not to compare my new life to my old life. Some days I do better than others. Some days the pity party is bigger than others and some days I am just thankful to be standing.
We have a new addition to our family. (Stop laughing...I know what you are thinking! No, this is not like the last addition to the family.) This is Einstein...isn't he handsome? He might also be the reason mayhem is a part of the title of this post. He is a 9 month old lab/dane mix who is just a big squishy, slobbery love bug. Unfortunately, the two senior citizen canine members of the family don't particularly appreciate being squished or slobbered on. We're working on that! Needless to say, adding another boy to the mix in this house leads to some very loud interactions! But I have been calling him my rehab dog. Exercise never having been my thing, this is a dog who needs walking. Every morning, 5:30 a.m., there is a cold nose in my face, reminding me it is time to hit the road. Some walks are longer than others and some get cut short when I don't feel great, but we are out there, and for that I am thankful!
So, on to Mother's Day. It was a lovely day today. My darling husband, who is not yet the biggest fan of the above mentioned puppy (did I mention he didn't really want a puppy? He wanted an older dog, perhaps one who had grown out of the craziness of a lab puppiness, but I fell in love with that face and there was no discussion of not adopting...) got up and did the morning walk so I could sleep in. Until 8:30!!! Wow! Then Mom and I went to see Mother's Day (an actual movie, live action, not animated or anything!) and then there was crab for dinner (I couldn't really eat it, but Mom, Steve, and the girl who will eat anything all enjoyed it greatly!) After dinner the kiddos showered me with presents, all bearing their pictures. Only a few tears were shed, mostly by me!
I've been thinking all day today about how thankful I am for, well, just for being here. And how thankful I am for all the moms in my life, those related to me by blood or by marriage, those bound to me by a lifetime of friendship, and those who have become my friends more recently. Moms who teach me through their challenges and struggles and survival and successes. Moms who care for my children as if they are one of their own. Moms who laugh and cry with me, who get angry and indignant and bitchy with me, moms who tell it like is, not just what I want to hear. Moms with a husband, moms with a wife, single moms, soon to be single moms...You are all part of my family, my pack, my crew, my life and I would not be the mom I am today without each and every one of you. So thank you for being you and for being a part of me. Thank you for the ear, the shoulder, the laugh, the text, the email, however it is you are there for me, thank you. I love all of you in your own special way.
Thank you to my children on this Mother's Day. I learn something new from you every single day. Before you, I never knew how full my heart could be. You give me a reason to fight.
Thank you to my mother. I am lucky enough to have a really short commute to your door and my children are blessed by your presence in their lives. We may not always see eye to eye, but we always see heart to heart. I love you.
Thank you to my mother-in-law. I don't always tell you how much I appreciate your generosity of time and spirit, but I do truly! Thank you for raising an amazing man...I couldn't ask for a better person to share my life with.
And speaking of which, last but certainly not least, though he is definitely not a mother, thank you to my husband. You are the best person I know. You kept this house together when I was falling apart and you did it with no complaint. You took such good care of me and the kids that I don't really think they even knew how sick I was. You were father and mother when I couldn't be and made it okay for all of us. I love you and will forever be grateful that I took that student teaching position.
Love and sparkles to you all,